when it's time to say good bye..

I t takes a lot of guts to say - "It's over" when it's killing you on the inside. Trying to be strong and pretending to be okay even if you're not. The memories shared, the laughter and tears.

Many times we've closed our eyes so we wont see the reality. Accepting every sorry and forget the pain.

The hardest part is to start your life after saying it's over. It's no longer a relationship if it only gives you pain, suffering and heart ache; if only one person feels the love; if you're living in sadness and cannot find peace. Nobody deserved this feeling and you have the key to make it right. Move forward and face the world for a new beginning, for the new you. It's never easy, but happiness is a matter of choice. Stand up and proud! Letting go of the person you loved the most is one of the bravest decision and a painful one. It doesn't mean letting go is giving up but accepting that some things are not really meant to be, that happiness of today is not a guarantee of forever. But that's the reality, not all fairy tales, not all princesses have a happily-ever-after story, sometimes it ends in tragic.

Smile, be strong and after the storm you'll see the sunshine shining on you.

friends for keeps

then 'til now

Zeth, as you wished! I made the collage :)

my crazy friends 

#high school life

the voice inside me

Being a singer is my frustration. Well, I'm not a singer but I love to sing. It's my way of expressing myself, of what I really feel. I always found myself singing.. when I'm happy or sad, in every emotions I have in each moment.

My father sings very well. His voice is amazing. I'm not being bias but I swear, he has a good voice. When I was a kid every time he's taking a vacation from abroad, I would always hear him singing with his minus one cassette tape or with the VHS videoke. And maybe that's why, I was also influenced with old classic song like Frank Sinatra, Elvis Presley and most especially, THE BEATLES (I'm a fan).

When I was sophomore, the choir group invited the students to become a part of the said group that will be singing every Sunday at the church. I love to be part of the said group because I love to sing and I love to sing for the Lord. My friends tried and auditioned at the school library, I'm the one left behind. I can't sing in front of the members of the choir and to the students who's also auditioning. All of my friends passed the audition and they became a choir member. I envy them. I don't have the guts for the audition. It's my frustration and I want it so bad. I regret that day when I had a cold feet and back out for the audition.

my soundcloud account.. (my covers)
http://soundcloud.com/iminlovewithsunset

Mt. Romelo : A Trek to Remember

It's a sunny Saturday morning, thanks God for the fine weather. My friends and I went on a trip and obviously, I planned it and made the coordination.

at Areza while waiting for a ride going to Siniloan

Mount Romelo is located at the south, in the mountain ranges of Sierra Madre. Our destination are the Buruwisan falls, Lanzones falls and Batya-batya falls. We planned to meet at around 7am and as expected, all of us were late.. :) From Nagcarlan, we took a jeepney going to Sta. Cruz (Magdalena way) and drop to Areza (not sure if it's already part of Pagsanjan or Sta. Cruz). Then a jeepney going to Siniloan. From Siniloan, we took a trike going to Famy (drop point - Brgy. Macatad).

Before heading to Brgy. Macatad, we first visited the Siniloan church, pray for a few minutes

At the drop point, a man approached us and asked if we're going on a trek. He's name is Kuya Botong, an approachable man, we got his service to be our guide for P300. But we all agreed to give an additional payment since he's really helpful, accommodating with lots of patience especially to me during the trek.

Kuya Botong

at the registration 

registration fee is P50

Start!

We asked kuya Botong, how long will it take to reach the Buruwisan falls and told us for about an hour. But our trek took for almost 3 hours. We had a hard time during the trek. Abby fainted (thank you to the group of campers who gave fox's candy), Suzette had cramps and I almost cry, feels like losing my breath.There are 12 station to pass before reaching the camp site. Each station has a cross sign and area where campers can rest for few minutes. 

view from the top

1st station.. 11 more to go!

Some of the stations we've passed, rest for few minutes.

Buko loco for P15. Thank you Kim for the treat. 

 The muddy trail adds excitement. Campers can also rent horse of locals going to the campsite for P300.

path walk more fun

First stop, Buruwisan falls and Lanzones falls (they are near to each other)

To reach this falls, we need to go down in a slippery trail, on a huge tree full of big roots. The roots serve as the staircase. This is really a big challenge for me since I'm afraid of heights. Kuya Botong asked our group: "Kaya nyo ba bumaba ng patalikod?"

way to the falls

'cause the best part is falling

majestic picture of Buruwisan falls and ideal for photography

Buruwisan falls is 40ft high and more or less 60ft deep

Trekking is all worth it once you see the falls.

at its cleanest 

Lanzones falls 

10-12ft high

 Batya-batya falls is on the other side. It took us almost an hour to reach it. We can say that this is the most challenging of all the three falls. We need to swim into shoulder deep water. Since I'm not a swimmer, I really had a hard time. Big thanks to Kuya Botong who have a lot of patience.

Batya-batya

more or less 5ft deep

We survived! Tired and still trying to smile. 

This is all worth it.

Good company of friends, another memories shared.

My Take, My View : just sayin'

The talk of every-JUAN : R.A. No. 10175 Cyber Crime Prevention Law

-Law makers should think of the people who voted for them. This law cut off the freedom of speech.

-So, what if a gave a sarcastic opinion? I will be accuse of libel? Politicians, all they wanna hear are praises and good things about them. I won't lie to please them. And one more thing, election is nearly coming. The so called "Law Makers" will make "PAPOGI" again! Their faces everywhere with promises of giving good life to the people. Kainis!

-Old post can still be used against you. Old post from your blog, twitter, facebook. I will not be surprised if even old post and comments from FRIENDSTER will be used against a person. Then maybe, many will end up going to jail.

-There are many law to be passed insted. What about RH Bill? It's been an issue for a long time.

RESPECT each others right, know your right. Be FAIR because it's not fair!

"INTERNET FREEDOM" is a Basic Human Right - UN Declares!

pasta lover : mix vegetable and tuna

Cooking hits me again! I always try to make a healthy dish that is why in this pasta recipe, my ingredients are mix vegetables and tuna..

ingredients:
-mix vegetables
-bell pepper
-tuna fillet in spanish oil
-pasta (cooked according to direction)
-olive oil
-all purpose cream (optional)
-salt and pepper to taste

1. Saute bell pepper in olive oil. Add the mix vegetables and tuna.
2. Pour in the all purpose flour. (this is optional. if you want your pasta to be more healthy, omit the ALP)
3. Add salt and pepper to taste.
4. Mix in the pasta.
5. Add parmesan cheese on top.

Fruit of Waiting

It's hard to wait for an answer..
wait for a phone call or text message
wait for the rain to stop or until the rainbow comes out
wait for your order to be served
wait to be home from long day of work
wait for the last trip of bus
wait until your favorite song's played on the radio
wait for the things to change
..but I'll never get tired of you.

When will impossible be possible? That the world is just a happy place. Everything will fall into its perfect place; everything is just right.

Who knows, you're next in line.
It's your time, right time, perfect time. Happiness is everywhere.

After all the storm. LOVE will give your FAIRY TALE.

Tuesdays with Morrie

Tuesdays with Morrie inspires every readers and gives hope. Aging doesn't mean doing nothing at all. We should embrace life, make struggles your motivation and foundation of your being. And what I've learned, - "Live life to the fullest."

1. "Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live."  

2. "You closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too-even when you are in the dark. Even when you're falling."

3. "As you grow old, you learn more. If you stayed at twenty-two, you'd always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, its also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it."

4. "So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."  

5. "The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it."

6. "The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in."

7. "If you don't have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family, you don't have much at all. Love is so supremely important."

8. "The truth is, you don't get satisfaction from those things. You know what really gives you satisfaction? ...Offering others what you have to give."

9. "Forgive yourself before you die. Then forgive others."

10. "Death ends a life, not a relationship."  

 

movie of all time

The movie I love to death!

:)

the sand.. the beach.. the sunset..and ME

priceless.. the best things in life are free. 

Chances

We all have those experiences in our life that we will never forget, experience that leaved a mark and special spot in our life. When we love someone, we made them our world. You wake up each day with a smile on your face. Everything seems to be perfect.

But at some point, the perfect world you’re feeling turns into an imperfect one. They say, it’s better to be perfectly imperfect rather than being perfect but full of pretensions. Parted ways because of reasons. Reasons.. accept it. We may be blind and convinced ourselves that what’s happening is just a dream. But life is not a fairy tale. Life is not perfect. And sometimes, our life doesn’t happen the way we planned and the way we want it to be.

We all came from different walks of life. Different people come and go. People who gave certain joy that no one can ever give, and the happiness that you could never imagine without that special person. At some point there might come a time that you both need a space. But it doesn’t mean that you don’t love each other. Maybe, the space will help you to understand and realize your worth in each other’s life. When the right time comes and both parties are ready, then give each other a chance.

Chances.. If you really love the person, then give him a chance. A chance to start again and a chance for a new beginning. There’s nothing wrong in taking a risk. Why would you deprive yourself in loving the person that you want to spend the rest of your life? And besides, the happiness he’s giving you gives life to your world. The happiness is very genuine. We all have reasons to smile in times of problems, reason to live for the person we love and reason to love to give life. Above all, God gives us a wonderful person, just enough to be happy and contented. Appreciate and celebrate life. Be a blessing to everyone.

Chance for happiness. Chance for life. Chance for love. Chance for each other.  Embrace the moment that you have each other and keep the faith that it’ll be forever. 

Sapat lang..

Hanggang kailan ba dapat lumaban? At hanggang kailan ba dapat sumuko na? May mga bagay na mahirap panindigan, mahirap paniwalaan. Pwede ba yung sapat lang o kailan makukuntento sa sapat lang. Kaya mo bang sabihin sa taong pinapangarap mo na mahal mo siya? Magkakalakas ka ba ng loob na ipagtapat ang nararamdaman mo? Paano kung hindi mo binigyan ng pagkakataon ang sarili mo na ipahayag ang nararamdaman mo, yun pala mahal ka din niya? At paano kaya kung ayaw mo na talaga? Yun bang naramdaman mo lang na hindi ka na masaya pero wala kang lakas ng loob na sabihin. Iniisip mo siguro na may masasaktan, na makakasakit ka. Pero naisip mo din ba na mas mabuti na yung may masaktan dahil naging totoo lang kesa naman masaya pero kasinungalingan lang pala. Sayang ang panahon kung gagamitin natin sa wala lang, sa sama ng loob.

Sana ganito na lang, sana ganun na lang, sana okay lang ang lahat, sana okay lang siya at sana, okay kami. Yun bang tama ang lahat. Lahat ng iniisip ko at iniisip niya pareho. Kung ano ang nararamdaman ko, ganun din siya sa akin. Yung tipong magkatinginin lang kami alam na namin ang iniisip ng isa't isa. Yung MASAYA lang. Kahit na hindi kami magkasama at magkausap palagi, alam kong andyan lang siya. May matatakbuhan ako pag may problema ako, yung hahayaan lang nya na umiyak ako para ilabas ang nararamdaman kong sakit pag may problema. yung papakinggan lang ako sa lahat ng sama ng loob ko pagkatapos pipilitin niya na maging masaya na ako, papasayin nya ko. Kahit na magmuka siyang baliw mapatawa lang ako. Yung simpleng Mahal Kita, sapat na yun. Simple pero nararamdaman. 

May mga tanong na mahirap sagutin.. "WHAT IF?"

What if nagtanong ako?

What if ganito yung ginawa ko?

What if kami pa?

What if hindi ko na lang siya nakilala?

Sana masaya lang ang lahat. Sana SAPAT na yung SAPAT lang. Basta mahal niya ako, mahal ko din siya. Masaya kami dahil meron kaming isa't isa. Yung walang hiwalayan, walang ending, walang tapos na. 

Yung sana pagkatapos ng lahat, OKAY pa din kami. Okay lang ang lahat. Yung hanggang FOR-E-VER.

Clue.Hint.Unanswered Questions.Case is still open.

Surreal.  Like the weather, it's not stormy but not a good one. I woke up early, leave the house and go to work earlier than the usual.

Thinking of a good food to eat this cold weather but only had garden salad for lunch. I guess, I lost my appetite and don't feel like eating today. As I'm doing this blog, there's a background music playing (Adele and The Script's songs) and I'm also eating, took almost an hour to finished the salad. And I'm working too! Multi tasking.. I need to finished this blog first so that I can go back and focus on my work.

Strange feeling. I'm not okay, I'm not okay.. There you go again!
They say, life is full of surprises. And yes it is! What if there are questions that's running on your mind for quite some time now and out of nowhere after browsing and browsing and browsing on the net you found a hint. Just a hint. The questions are not really answered but at least I have an idea what's wrong and why it happened. Clueless no more. But it still leaves a hanging question, questions that can not be answered.

South Border said "There's a Rainbow Always After the Rain" and Mariah sings "I Can Make it Through the Rain", songs that's perfect at this point. Perfect for the weather. Weather talaga?! :) and Bruno Mars said "Today My Life Begins".

Back to work.. Focus now.. and no "Lazy Song" this time..
And it goes on.. and on.. and on.. and then one day.. Everything will be okay, in God's time.

cover: somewhere down the road

somewhere down the road

then, maybe one day..
if this is not the right time, i'll be waiting until the right time comes.

Mom

May 13, 2012.... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

Every sons and daughters wants to have a wonderful mother and I'm lucky to have my mom, she's the best! She's very caring as a mother and as a wife. A woman that still manages to be strong in times of problems. A loving mother that always reminds me about good deeds, being positive in life and loving God. Giving me words of encouragement when I'm down but her presence is just enough for me to be strong.

Because of her, I'm dreaming of becoming a wife someday. I can see the fulfillment and happiness in her, it's very genuine. The dedication in taking care of us. And up to this point, treating me as a little girl. I'm very secure.

I will always be your little baby girl. Happy Mother's Day! Thanks for everything, for giving your life to us and for giving us life!

tofu and tuna fillet in coconut milk

I love food with coconut milk, so I decided to create my own dish with the main ingredient - COCONUT MILK!


What is coconut milk?
Coconut milk is the liquid that comes from the grated meat of a coconut. Nowadays, it comes from different forms - in powder or in can which is very convenient. 


So, lets start! This is another healthy dish..


Ingredients:
-coconut milk
-tofu (fried and cut into cubes)
-string bean
-tuna fillet
-garlic and onion
-oil


1. Heat the pan and put a little oil.
2. Saute garlic and onion.
3. Add the tofu and tuna fillet.
4. Followed by the string beans.
5. Add the coconut milk and simmer for few minutes. 


Serve with RICE! :)

Veggie Burger

I was inspired again to make another healthy yet delicious dish.

green peas (mushed)
chopped mushroom
carrots (shredded)
onion
garlic
bread crumbs

corn kernels 

1. Drain and crumble tofu in a large mixing bowl, add the mushed green peas and set aside.

2. Heat the pan and add olive oil.

3. Saute the onion, garlic, carrots and mushroom. Season with salt and pepper.

4. Add herbs and spices to the mixture.

5. Remove from the heat and add the bread crumbs.

6. Let the mixture cool, then add the crumbled tofu, mush green peas and corn kernels (it adds texture)

7. Shape the mixture into patties. Fry.

*eat as part of sandwich. Add coleslaw (lettuce, tomato, pepper and mayo) and cheese.

pasta 101 : pesto pasta

I love to eat and to cook and I can say that I'm a certified foodie. I love pasta! And I will share to you again, another pasta dish. My own version of Pesto Pasta. :) 

Don't worry, this is very easy to make. It will only take you a few minutes and viola! You have a pasta dish already.  So let's start....

Ingredients:

pasta (any kind, cooked according to instruction)

garlic

pesto 

tomato (cut into cubes)

tuna

Parmesan cheese

1. In a pan, put a little oil.. Add the garlic and pesto, and  the tuna. 

2. Add the cooked pasta and tomatoes, toss.

3. Serve with Parmesan cheese on top. 

mushroom and tuna in herbs&garlic pasta with fish stick

Let me share this easy yet healthy recipe.. All you need are the following ingredients

-pasta noodles (cooked according to instruction)

-garlic

-McCormick herbs and garlic mix

-tuna

-mushroom

side dish

-fish stick

sauce/dipping

-cream

-tomato sauce

procedure:

1. Heat oil and saute garlic, mushroom and tuna.

2. Put cooked pasta and pour herb and garlic mixture. Toss.

3. Put Parmesan cheese [optional but adds yummynest to the dish  :) ]

side dish

1. Deep fry the fish stick (breaded cream dory)

sauce/dipping

1. Heat the pan and combine the tomato sauce and cream.

2. Add salt to taste.

3. Put cream and tomato sauce and mayo on top of the fish.

Serve the pasta and fish stick

ang SLUMBOOK na mahirap sagutan

May slumbook pa pala..
And super late bithday present to me of my bestfriend Abby

Personal Information 

Includes the name but the crazy part is the gender, crazy choices.. Some of the choices are the station of LRT. And the relationship status, nakakaaliw. Daming choices and very specific: from Single to single uli, Bitter, MU, may katext ng kumain ka na?...............

Ang cute! And my fave movie of all time, SERENDIPITY.. 

The "kakaibang slumbook" : and because it's diffrent, mahirap din pala sagutan.

Favorite toe.. Whaaaaaat? May ganito talaga?! 

What is love? All about love... blah blah blah!

Dear Self dedication!

Pole Dancing Experience

Last year I took up a pole dancing class and for me, that was an out of the box experience. I was watching on TV and pole dancing was featured and since then, I had an interest on trying it. It came to a surprise that my office is also interested so we went to Polecats Manila and give it a try.

This was I think the second or third time we went to pole dance class at 360 Fitness Club Ortigas. Going to class is like always a first time for me, I'm always nervous :) and thinking if I can do the stunts. 

And yes, I'm thinking what to do. I had a hard time doing the reverse of every stunts. 

My friend Xyza doing the Fireman 

I also went to class with my ate Donna, meeting her again after an ancient years :) sadly, we don't have pictures taken during the class. 

This was taken after the class, feeling tired but fulfilling.  

I'm done with pole dancing and I want to try something new. This was an experience. Discipline and focus is a must. And be yourself.